The Dilemma

The world out there is nasty,
I am still learning.

Why do people promise to take away the pain?
When I know there's no gain, without pain.

When I am angry, I am loud and violent,
When I am hurt, I am clear & silent.
But people suffer from my pain,
And this not what I wanna gain.

I wonder if this the Zeroth law?
Are people gonna hate me for every flaw?
As tear sweeps down my cheek,
I am still learning not to be weak.

I wish there was a guide.
But then, I won't be living in the pride.
Is there an end to this learning cycle?
Or am I gonna die letting my emotions recycle?